you know that feeling when you replay a conversation in your head a million times analyzing every single word you said wondering if you sounded stupid or if you made the other person mad? yeah, that's me like all the time. it's like i'm constantly trying to predict every possible outcome for no reason, and it's exhausting.

i know overthinking doesnt really help, and it's not like it solves anything, but it's hard to stop. it's like my brain is wired to overcomplicate things. sometimes, i wish i could just flip a switch and turn off all the noise in my head and relax for ONCE.

maybe thats just me though???

so, i’ve been trying really hard to keep a good schedule like, you know, wake up early, eat, spend time with my bf, get some workout in, maybe have time for other stuff, and still hang out with friends but omg, it's been so hard to keep up with it. like i’ll start off strong, and by midweek, it’s like everything just falls apart like how??? i keep telling myself “okay, tomorrow i’ll get back on track,” but then tomorrow comes and i’m just as overwhelmed!!!

i thought maybe if i write everything down in a planner, it would help so i did that like i had this whole cute color-coded system going but yet i still fucked up my whole day! like i’ll get a text from a friend and suddenly im off getting coffee or i’ll wake up a little later than i planned, and then more and more stuff adds up smth and now i just feel fucking STRESSED!!!

maybe i’ll never have the perfect schedule, but i’m learning to be okay with that i’m just taking it one day at a time and doing the best i can. and hey, having my boyfriend by my side makes it all a little easier, even when i’m struggling.

dfell asleep in my bfs car wqhile in a roadtrip wherer tf am i